Choke

maybe what I saw
was the earth’s shadow rise
up a cloud
turning it toward the top pink
then fading that back
to gray then night.
then maybe I think I see.
too much.
the tiniest gradation of  detail
squeezed from attention
by the choke hold
on thin air for the sublime a blessing.
when life stinks
and your eyes have to take it in to live.
and your eyes have to take it in to live
the exact instant you need to jump
out of  the way. to safety
or see danger’s vulnerable spot and hit it.
your eyes have to think
through what they are seeing to see
how measure measures itself
when you are in it against you to match or dis-
entangle that nascent not null of  difference. maybe what I see
is down to the continuum where what it is
is what it is one thing
undifferentiated all
except as the surface of one perfect sphere
its paris and buenos aires the same place.
What it is is what is seen without observer.
it is that said what it is.
exo-existent
thought. without outside.
there are lines as of  poetry
of  information between us though.
resonant. structure.
what is asleep when we turn the lawn mower on
if  only the pieces we think
something has caught it for—
the turning of  attention to.
the turning of  the earth. the earth is what is turning.
there is no setting
of  the sun down.
of  the sun down
some inclination to impact
at our feet as fact we stand to have
written by being here—
the rocks have source saying the same.
except they translate silent.
the word of  the wind itself spoken everywhere
has the version of  it all as well as of  not happening ...
the sun doesn’t move. its designation.
what it is pushes forward the appearance.
and behind—
the eastern shadow rising of  the sun’s soft down down.
its paris and buenos aires a same place.
what it is is what is seen without observer.
not the thing itself
the quality of  the hold on things
the choke hold on the neck of the calling bird
may be the goddamn
of  jacob’s ladder what it is
could be the hands in the air air
time of  the better roller coasters
pulled out all stops the no hold bar & café take
out. item name
on the menu—
the ladder being an upward
clearer approach to step.
the life the breath.
of an answer. the questioning.
I eye iamb I am
watching the sky read
the line below it the landscape
get shaken by storm.
a ring iamb married into
bone dance stone crazy.
claws of  geese shadow
scratching wild song across the sky.
chicago’s potemkin waking
gun we’re off on. the morning
fred hampton the bobbing flock of the 1919 boy
in the inner tube float up on the 100th anniversary of  the race riot
along lake shore drive the commuters
no idea what it is. they say it is what it is.
anger joy disgust sadness fear
are all mountains raising in the sky
an aire jump up shout
sound shape song response as
not if  but is
one body.
even among themselves at some distance.
all one sphere one point
a sense of  time can be that distance’s familiar
but the mind can empathize itself  that size the dreadlocks
of  black holes where the anger digests itself
the joy carries its brother sadness also over
and fear realizes it’s ok
and the rains come the forests the  jungles the birds!

Structure

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