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[His Failures]
His failures-could he blame them on time? He hadn't been ready when the lucky chance arrived. Or if not time, then perhaps the fault was how he reacted to time's upheavals-those surprises that seemed to come from nowhere. And often at the moment of success, the success was less than expected, smaller than deserved. So weren't his defeats the result of high expectations? He had worked hard, but the outcome wasn't what he hoped. Indeed, it was unfair. But who could say what was fair and what wasn't? Hubris, arrogance, self-love: wasn't it pride that said what he should have? What he had to have? Those setbacks- weren't they the result of an inner voice that said he deserved better, a voice that sang to him, soothed him and had never told the truth?